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“Kid, you’ll move mountains”

So today in English class, we talked about what we did over break, we were asked to write about it. And so I did. And I realized, wow, I really didn’t do much but “recover” from school. As I was writing about it, I was thinking of all the days that I’ve ever spent inside the house, on my computer or whatever else. There’s been so many days that I’ve wasted, just laying around being lazy when I could’ve done something.

I was thinking about it as I was writing, there’s been so many days that I wish I could take back and use them differently, use them to make new friends or connect with old one. Or use them to help someone out or something, literally anything but wasting the day. Of course I’ve had many and will always have days that I will relax and do nothing but I wish I didn’t. I wish I didn’t want to have those days either. I wish that when I’m old and gray that I can look back on my life and know that I didn’t waste a single day.

Sure they sound great, a day spent in bed, just doing absolutely nothing. So stress free. But I wish I could go more places, and do more things. I wish I would feel like my time was more valuable. I wish I could feel like I didn’t have any to waste. But I don’t. Because I’m lazy. I wish I wasn’t. But I am. So maybe some day I’ll wake up and be more in that mindset of “there’s never time to spare”. Maybe one day I’ll wake up and think like how my mother thinks, 24 hours should never be enough to do all the things you want to do. But for now, and for a while, I know I’ll still have days that I waste. And I’ll have days that I’ll look back and wish that I didn’t waste.

– Wishes of a very sleepy Lindsay

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